Sandra Bragg

The Tumble Down the Mountain

2:31 PM

Before I hurt my knee back in April, I was doing such a great job with my health. I was getting lots of exercise in, 5 days a week of working out, if not more, if not multiple times a day. I was eating right and feeling great and finding it to be totally easy to do. I was motivated, excited and feeling amazing.

Then I hurt my knee. I tried to continue with my momentum but when it comes down to it, Crossfit and wanting to get better at Crossfit is what drives me to be better. And, while my knee has been healing, I’ve had to scale workouts so much, not because of skills but because of injury and it just hasn’t felt the same. While, I’ve still gone to Crossfit, I’ve definitely slacked and my eating, well….

Let’s just say being healthy is climbing a mountain and I’ve slid way far back down. Giving up is much easier than perseverance and in a lot of ways I gave up. I didn’t care. There was so much I couldn’t do and that just killed my motivation, killed my caring, killed all my good and hard work.

While Joseph and I were at the beach, I went for a walk on my own. There is something about the beach that is very therapeutic to me. Part of it is, I can connect to nature without bugs, but another part is that I enjoy the water and the breeze and the feel of sand between my toes. So, while Joseph and Emmy played in the waves, I went for a stroll.

Self-consciously, once I felt like I was far enough away from Joseph and Emmy, I started to try and jog. I hadn’t jogged since before I hurt my knee and if it was a big dud, I didn’t want to have to talk about it. And my breathing was on point, my knee felt fine and I jogged the better part of my mile and a half jaunt. I feel like that jog helped me rediscover the part of me that cares about being healthy and fit.

Sunday, Joseph let me steal the last beach morning run before we left and I took off with Zombie Run playing in my earbuds, an app I hadn’t used in I don’t even know how long. All in all, with walking and jogging, I pushed myself to do a 5K and it just all felt good (and a little bad, in that way that working out sometimes make you feel). I honestly could have cried because I felt good about being active in the first time in a long, long time.

So this is me, sharing my struggle, and my joy. I’m ready to head back up the mountain.

crossfit

Crossfit Regionals, Granite Games and Overcoming My Own Perceptions of My Abilities

3:00 PM

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When we went to the Mid Atlantic Crossfit Regionals a few months ago there was one girl that I really enjoyed watching. While I really love watching all of the athletes workout because they are absolutely amazing and inspiring there was one woman in particular that just really spoke to my soul. As expected, the athletes at regionals are chiseled and cut and they look the athlete part. They are not the normal mere mortals that do crossfit to live a healthier lifestyle. No, no, they are the individuals whose lives are dedicated to trying to become fittest on Earth.

And, this girl who just resonated with me, she was absolutely amazing and she wasn’t chiseled or cut. Not to say she wasn’t fit; girl could do legless rope climbs, strict muscle ups and placed top 3^rd on one of the more strenuous workouts of the weekend. And for someone like me, who isn’t a tiny little princess; who hasn’t figured out the “enjoy food and workout” balance yet, seeing a more “normal” body kill it was awesome. (Normal, of course, being a fully relative term)

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What I really loved about this girl is that, no doubt, people would look at this regional athlete and without knowing better would make judgment calls about her or what they think she would be able to do, or her skills. And, I feel like because she was a tad bit thicker than your typical regionals athlete, she really showed me that what you look like, or what you might be carrying around with you does not dictate your skills or abilities.

Because, if I’m being honest, I think it’s easy to look at people and pigeonhole them into what they should be able to do depending on how they look. And, when that happens I feel like it’s a great disservice to that person. And, so I’m watching this girl, who isn’t shaped like a typical regional athlete and realizing that although she is FAR and AWAY more fit than me, there is no reason why I can’t endeavor and succeed with whatever I want to do, regardless of how I look or am shaped. And there is certainly no reason to put off trying and working on skills.

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So, the past 5 weeks we’ve been doing the Granite Games and I signed up for the scaled division, because I am 100% a scaled athlete (and okay with that). And, I feel like my results really highlight the fact that you cannot look at a person and decide what they are able to do. You cannot write off someone’s potential. Because, what will happen is this normally shaped girl, who still struggles with gymnastic moves but refuses to give up on conquering them, will come in second for the scaled division at her box out of a great deal of very talented, and competitive athletes. This girl will stay top 3 on all the workouts except the last, because of those danged gymnastic moves, and even have a 1^st place finish in the workouts for her box. And while I may not know if I changed anyone's perceptions of my abilities, I certainly know I changed my own.

I may have a long way to go with some skills but I can’t be pigeonholed into expectations, not even by myself.

avocado

The Graham HolmBURGER

6:33 PM

advocare

Change Your Viewpoint, Change Your Life

3:30 PM

You know those before and after pictures? The ones where someone transformed from a surly looking overweight person to an ecstatic thin/skinny/fit person… Usually, these pictures are accompanied with some diet trend, or weight loss product, or a story of how that person finally hit their goal body composition.

But, let’s talk about what those pictures, and products and stories usually leave out. What I honestly consider to be a pretty important aspect of actually being able to lose weight and live healthier. Learning to love your body.

Hating your body is easy… You’re either too fat and need to go eat a salad, or you’re too skinny and need to eat a burger. You have stretch marks or cellulite, or GOD FORBID both and you should never dare to show those limbs/body parts. You can see your clavicles? Well, you must be anorexic! Fat arms? Better wear sleeves so as to keep from offending anyone. Hairy toes and dry feet, get thyself to the nail salon, you MONSTER.

There are hundreds of little ways in which people are inundated with their imperfections because other people think THEY are allowed to comment on your body, your appearance, your self worth. And it’s plain bullshit and I remember when I used to believe it.

In high school, my best friend was (and still is) a naturally thin girl (even after having ALL The cute babies). (And to be honest, I was surrounded by a bunch of naturally thin people or people who were hyper focused on things like their body fat percentage) And as a teenager it was far too easy to see why she was beautiful and tie FAR too much of that beauty into her weight. And me? I was a size 9-11, I weighed more than the other girls my age. I wasn’t fat, but you couldn’t convince me of that. And because I was “fat,” there was no way I could be as pretty, there was no way that I could be thought of attractive. And I tied so much of my weight into my self worth.

But the thing is, her being skinny didn’t make her beautiful. No. It’s one aspect of her body composition and she’s a simply amazing person and the sum of her parts is what makes her beautiful (inside and out). And what I didn’t realize in high school, and took me a long time to realize is that me being “fat” didn’t make me any less of a beautiful, wonderful and loving person.

But spending so much of my teenage years, judging myself and feeding into this belief that I wasn’t good enough because of my weight, because I didn’t conform into this ideal body size, it stuck with me for a long time. It fed into so many actions, it kept me from taking care of myself properly and it kept me from being able to love myself.

Ironically, it was at my heaviest that I learned to love myself. To not worry about other people when I finally started wearing shorts in public. To not give a damn if my arms might be considered “too fat” to wear sleeve less shirts. To dare to love myself, to treat myself right and to appreciate my body for what it is and capable of and to NOT focus on everything other people have taught me is wrong, and other people hate about themselves.

Largely because of crossfit and learning what my body is capable of, regardless of my size; partially because of seeking out more body positive influences; and also a lot of working on my outlook, I learned to love myself. Sure, some days are hard and I’m hard on myself. But every day I love myself.

And this loving myself? WOW has it changed so many aspects of my life. Because I love myself, I take far better love of myself. I work out consistently and I LOVE it. Working out consistently has encouraged me to eat healthier because I want to get better at crossfit. I also eat healthier to take better care of my body, to live a healthier life, to be the best me because I am absolutely WORTH it.

I am worth every single kind thought I can give myself. I am worth wearing what I want without worrying about any silly imperfections I might have. I am worth loving myself to the very core of my being. And so are you.

I talk to my friends and I hear how their tear themselves down; beautiful and amazing people, whose faults only stand out to them. Who can’t get past fears that someone might tear them down without realizing that THEY are tearing themselves down the most. Without realizing that when I look at them, I don’t see faults but their positives. And I want my friends, I want ALL of my friends to see what I see in them; to know how amazing and beautiful and strong and inspiring they are to me.

I never successfully lost a single pound until I learned to love myself. So, my before picture? It isn’t surly. I’m smiling because I love myself. I loved myself at 260 pounds. I loved myself at 240 (my weight in the pictures, which are also my Before pics for my 1st Advocare Challenge). And, I love myself now. Because my weight is not my self worth. It’s a number. And my wanting to lose weight is not an indication that I don’t love myself. It’s a natural result of loving myself and wanting to treat myself the absolute very best that I can.

Love yourself.

It will change your life and you won’t regret it.

breakfast

Chocolate Peanut Butter Overnight Oats

6:08 PM

How an Accident Can't Stop a Crossfit Addict

10:54 AM

Last Tuesday I partially dislocated and sprained my knee at crossfit. I’ve been reluctant to discuss this because I know that people’s minds will jump to “crossfit is dangerous; it isn’t safe.” But the reality is, I’ve hurt myself running, I’ve hurt myself dancing, I hurt myself in 4^th grade at the skating rink when someone ran into me. Accidents happen and they are a byproduct of living. At the end of the day, what happened to my knee was a freak occurrence and it hasn’t swayed my love of crossfit in the least… so moving on:

Last Wednesday, like a good little patient, I went to the doctor to get my knee checked out. It was swollen, but not terribly, the pain had subsided a great deal but, I just wanted to make sure that I was okay. I guess, what I had really been hoping I would hear is “go home, rest, ice and elevate and you’ll be better in no time.” However, that wasn’t my reality.

Instead, because my knee is partially dislocated, my patella isn’t in the correct spot, I mean, it practically is, but not fully. So, the doctor gave me a brace to wear for the next 4-6 weeks and hopefully the next time I get x-rays done, my patella will be back in line.

When the doctor first told me that I’d be in a brace for 6 weeks, I was extremely bummed. I mean, I love crossfit and he just told me no running, jumping, squatting. Really, no intense motion or activity for my knee for a month and a half. Crossfit is mainly comprised of all those movements. Half of our lifts involve a squat of some kind, and running? That’s a main kind of cardio. And all I could think of was all the ways in which I wasn’t allowed to use my knee for the next 4-6 weeks. I was bummed, beyond bummed. I was, honestly, trying not to start crying.

It took a couple of days. Really, it took until my next crossfit workout (that following Friday) for my attitude to get a shift. While there was a portion of the workout I couldn’t do, I scaled it to the ability of my injury and I still got a really great workout. Duh, one of the best things about crossfit is that it is scalable for anyone. It is a fully inclusive sport, after all. And then I realized that sure, there is a lot I cannot do at the moment… But, imagine for a minute if I had torn a ligament and had needed surgery. That would have been a financial burden that would have weighed heavily on me. I definitely wouldn’t be looking at a 4-6 week healing time frame and I wouldn’t have been back at crossfit a mere 3 days later.

And, it’s only been a week so I have no doubt that there will be many times I will feel major frustration for not being able to participate normally, or getting to work on some of my favorite lifts. But, I could have needed surgery, I could have needed to stop crossfitting altogether for a while, and I didn’t. And for that I need to be ecstatic.

For the record there is still a lot you can do with one leg out of commission:

Rowing one legged
Pistols on your good side
Muscle hang cleans
Pull ups
L sits
Dips
Ring Rows
Dumbbell Rows
Jumping Rope on one foot
Bench Press
Strict Press
Sit Ups
Push Ups
Planks

So, now I’m just praying that the brace does its job, the swelling goes down and in a month, or so, I’m cleared to go back to life normally. And crossfitting, all the while, because what crossfit has done for my life has so magnificently over shadowed one accident.

Meal Planning!

11:35 AM

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The Tumble Down the Mountain

Crossfit Regionals, Granite Games and Overcoming My Own Perceptions of My Abilities

The Graham HolmBURGER

Change Your Viewpoint, Change Your Life

Chocolate Peanut Butter Overnight Oats

How an Accident Can't Stop a Crossfit Addict

Meal Planning!

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